母難日三題

母難日三題之一　今生今世

我最忘情的哭聲有兩次
一次， 在我生命的開始
一次，在你生命的告終
第一次，我不會記得，是聽你說的
第二次，你不會曉得，我說也沒用
但兩次哭聲的中間啊
有無窮無盡的笑聲
一遍一遍又一遍
回盪了整整三十年
你都曉得，我都記得

母難日三題之二　矛盾世界

快樂的世界啊
當初我們見面
你迎我以微笑
而我答你以大哭
驚天，動地

悲哀的世界啊
最後我們分手
我送你以大哭
而你答我以無言
關天，閉地

矛盾的世界啊
不論初見或永別
我總是對你以大哭
哭世界始於你一笑
而幸福終於你閉目

母難日三題之三　天國地府

每年到母難日
總握著電話筒
很想撥一個電話
給久別的母親
只為了再聽一次
一次也好
催眠的磁性母音

但是她住的地方
不知是什麼號碼
何況她已經睡了
不能接我的電話
「這裡是長途臺
究竟你要接哪一個國家？」

我該怎麼回答呢
天國，是什麼字頭
地府，有多少區號
那不耐的接線生
卡撻把線路切斷
留給我手裡一截
算是電線呢還是

若斷若連的臍帶
就算真的接通了
又能夠說些什麼
「這世界從你走後
變得已不能指認
唯一不變的只有
對你永久的感恩」

DECIDED~~~

okayz~~duno why, out of a sudden, my trip is decided~~hopefully no more other sudden changes to it~~well, i'll be flying bac home on the 14th, then i'll fly to indon for my school council trip on 15th nite~~~den after coming bac from indon, will be staying in KL from 20th onwards until about 24th/26th, depending on situation~~all of a sudden, it's like God had made the decision for me...Thank you Lord once again~~~u alwiz have the way to settle all the stuff tat are stucked in my head for me...and we're gonna sign the contract with the owner 2mr, so basically, everything is settled~~as long as the trip could be confirmed on monday~~~cross my fingers~~~

Out of nowhere~~~

well...a fren that i had not contacted for a very long time suddenly threw me a shocking news~~~
his confession, i would not say made me uneasy, but rather surprised bcoz i never expected it...
anyhow...both of us knew the answers, and i'm glad he had the courage to tell me how he feels b4 he grad~~
tis is the wonderful part, well, since it's like not a short term thingy~~
some wont even have the courage to do so, but i reli salute u for wat u had done^.^
anyhow~~treat ur girl nice, and we'll alwiz stay as frenz!!!

P/S: i wonder why, ppl tend to think tat girls "like me" would already have a bf =.=

A Pleasant Surprise^.^

had been very thrifty recently~~~
due to overspending throughout the semester,
i'd been almost considered broke as i still need money for my trip ltr~~~

juz now went for Wolverine with some church members~~~
while approaching the cinema,
i juz simply put my hand into my pocket~~~
den,i touched a piece of paper which already bcom very comot ady~~~
i was thinking "haiyo, how come i forget the piece of paper in my pocket again~~"
tis pants had juz came bac from laundry few days ago~~~
i'd actually wore it few times, but din notice anything in the pocket~~~
initially i chose to ignore it as i din notice any rubbish bin~~~
but den out of curiosity,
i decided to have a look at the paper~~~

once i saw that piece of so called waste paper,
i was stunned!!!
the next reaction is excited!!!

tis is the piece of waste paper,
already damn comot due to being thrown into the washing machine 2gether with my shorts,
and almost been dumped into the rubbis bin~~
thank God I din bump into one...
or else T.T

Thank you Lord for always providing in times of need^.^
Love ya~~

P/S: think i'll have to korek out all my shorts with pockets to check whether did i still left anything~~~kakakaka~~

The Bridge

this is definitely one of the most wonderful story ever told...

a Father who sacrifises his son, so that all the sinners on the train could lead a brand new life...

He could have chose to save His son, as many fathers would...

and let the whole train of sinners fall to the depth where hell might be...

but He did not, as He chose to save all the ugly sinners on the train so that they have a second chance in life...

yet not everyone on the train may have heard of this incident,

they could have just live on without knowing what sacrifice the Father had made...

being ignorant and continue to sin in their lives...

or being grateful for being given a second chance in life and like the girl who used to take drugs,

could now have her own kids and start anew, with the death of the Son being a blessing for her...

the choice, is up to them to choose...

yet the Father never regrets His decision, and will alwiz love all the sinners on the train...

they are the lives given in exchange with the life of His very own son...

thus they are His children too...

a Father will alwiz love His children no matter what they had done...

He forgives and accepts...which make it the greatest love of all^.^

随性。。。

现在明明是我必须要在啃书的时候~~~

却想要忙里偷闲来随性写写~~~

就快要放假咯~~~

不懂是不是这个原因，最近的心情都很好~~~

就算是考试，也都很轻松~~~

跟上个学期的极大压力相比，这个学期倒是自在了很多^.^

而且近来发觉自己的韩文确实有进步了，哦也！！！

在看节目或者听歌的时候，明白的字眼和句子越来越多了~~

我知道有点迟了，但是才刚刚把《因为喜欢  做个好爸爸》看完了~~~

李弘基呀！！！要是以后我孩子的爸跟你一样那该有多好！！！

又疼小孩子、又帅气、又有才华，还有啊，你妒忌吃醋的模样太可爱了啦！！！

最喜欢这种撒娇起来很可爱，认真起来却又很有魅力的男生了！！！

刚刚在看最后一集的时候，还害我哭成了泪人~~~

没办法~~~感性的天蝎座~~~

还有啊，我期待着FT Island的CB哈~~~
好好加油把3辑做好吧！！！

之后又看了《至亲笔记》和《star king》，后者就还好，

前者呢，笑得我差点没在地上滚呀！！！

李赫宰你这个臭小子！！！

平时跳舞的时候魅力十足，没想到也是美人儿一个！！！

不过感谢《star king》，终于让我看多几眼久违了的崔始源呀~~

你这个臭家伙，早就想把你忘记了~~~

怎么就是挥之不去呢？？？

可怜的你被夹的都看不到你的脸了啦！！！

还硬撑 =.=

疼不疼啊？？？快点滚回来让我看看~~~

之后又不经意的发现了自己电脑里的《super show》，

所以就打开来重温妖精们合唱《marry u》的那个场面~~~

唉，看一次哭一次。。。太感人了啦！！！

这首歌，本来听起来就让人感觉很幸福。。。

全场大合唱，那个场面更加动人了 T.T

这首歌，每每听着听着，嘴角也会不经意的被牵起~~

好温馨呀~~~要是以后有人唱这首歌跟我求婚的话，肯定哭死我了~~~

2PM终于回归了~~~

带来了更帅气的舞台^.^

我对你们的期待，总算没有白费~~~

Nichkhun呀，你这个小宝贝终于有多点的歌词了哈~~~

不用再啦啦啦啦啦了~~~

但是hor，不论听多少次，我都总觉得那是粗话=o=

俊昊感觉上是这次CB的重点哈~~~

MV的那个结尾动作，超帅气的！！！

想要学好好多首歌的歌词，尤其是rap部分~~~

就是学不好~~~唉。。。

不管了，这个假期一定要掌握好了！！！

这是我给自己的任务~~~FIGHTING！！！

希望近期的所有烦恼都会尽早找到出路吧~~~

将一切交托于主~~~求主您看顾带领。。。

我也差不多该继续埋首书堆了~~~

Farewell to all my Dearest Friends!!!

well, time passes by in just a snap of the finger, we had reached the end of the 3rd yr of our uni lives~~~the thought of many of u are gonna leave real soon freaked me out, well, more or less...it's been almost three years all of us had spent our time together in Sabah, far from our hometown~~~being supportive to each other, hanging out alot with each other, doing crazy stuffs together...those happy+amazing moments will alwiz stay in my mind, forever!!!

aih...next sem, everything will not be the same anymore~~~there wont be anyone who's willing to fetch me bac from school whenever i'm lazy to wait for the bus...there wont be anyone who's gonna accompany me to have my meals...there wont be anyone to accompany me for movie trips...there wont me anyone to bring me all around the place whenever i ask...nobody to pamper me no more~~guess i gotta grow up...learn to rely on my very own self~~

well, i'm surely gonna miss all of u lotz!!! i never regret my choice of changing my course and extending my time here...it's juz tat, suddenly i juz felt very sad tat we're all gonna go in our own ways soon...honeymoon sorta uni life is gonna b over, and reality is going to tear most of us apart~~~

anyhow, i wish all of u all the best!!! and remember to keep in touch yo~~take care my buddies~~all the best for your viva and final!!!

SHERWYNNE IS A BAD BAD GIRL ^^

Kept eating korean food recently, wana fat die ady T.T
meanwhile, my purse is slimming down in an accelerating rate!!!
OHNO!!! shall stop eating!!! NO MORE!!!

wana share some gossip i heard from dinner just now~~~
really laugh die me^^kyakyakya~~~

now only i noe, me and my gang of gals bac in hometown (BM gang), are:

FAKE
(as in we always smile/laugh when we met some1)
[Sher: so i shall cry/be angry everytime i meet others???]

CHOR LOR
(as in we always talk in a higher tone to each other)
[Sher: at least i noe how to carry myself depending on the situation...but...duh~~tis is the way hang around with each other, so wat do u guys care???)

NO MANNERS
(well, on wat basis tis i duno~~)
[Sher: if i reli duno how to behave well, my lecturers and frens wont like me either rite??]

HANGED OUT TOO MUCH
(erm, as in like always go out and "pou")
[Sher: O~K~tat's wat u think~~my fav spot to "pou" is in restaurants, so??? not as if i always "pou" in discotiques or pubs~~never even been to a club]

ALL WE NOE IS SPEND SPEND SPEND
(as in we always go shopping, spend non-stop)
[Sher: i really do hope so~~but, anyway, i'm not spending ur money!!! u're not my mum&dad,so wat do u care??? huh???]

ALWAYS GANG UP
(erm, as in we only hang out with the ppl in our gang, never mix with others~~)
[Sher: u're not even in sabah, how do u noe??? do u reli noe me tat well???]

HAVE NO FRIENDS
(well, as in only mix with my own gang, tat's why dun have other frens)
[Sher: duh!!! if u consider me to dun have frens...den i reli duno wat to say liao~~shall i introduce to you ALL my frens??? do u reli understand me tat well???]

GET TERRIBLE RESULTS
(erm, as in we hanged out too much and dun study~~)
[Sher: well, i have my own way of life, wat do u care??? second upper is enough for me, rather than get first class and have such shit-stuffed mind+be a social outcast like YOU)

so, CONCLUSION: WE'RE BAD PEOPLE
[Sher: Hell yea i'm a bad girl so wat do u care??? it's not like u're one of my close frens and u noe me tat well!!! my frens and my parents loved me dearly, more than enough^^]

P/S: Why do i smell something called jealousy here??? kyakyakya~~~these ppl nowadays, really gave us a great laugh~~~it's a wonderful joke+gossip at the dining table~~

Earth Hour Malaysia

This is the first time Malaysia took part in the 60 Earth Hour^^ as a student, i'd adhere to the cryings of our mother earth, and had proudly did my part in this awareness inducing campaign~~

Date: 28.03.2009
Time: 2030-2130
Venue: My Room

(I'd took the chance to camwhore for the 1st half hour, and getting my lab report done in the 2nd half~~while roommie is watching movie on her lappie the whole while~~we're shut down all the lights in the entire house, and FYI, we are the two lonely souls left in this house during the hour^^)

This is a very meaningful thing indeed, to create awareness among us all~~let's love our mother earth more, there will be no us without her~~

累

真的感到好疲惫。。。
虽然打从一开始，下了决定选择了这条路后，就做好了一切心理准备。。。
但是远超过预料之外的突发状况真的让人倍感气馁。。。
为了自己所喜欢的付出所有我无所谓。。。
但是信心在最强烈时被打击得体无完肤却让我感到很愚昧~~~
坚持下去究竟是错是对？？？
仿佛我已经没有了后路可以撤退~~~
做好最后努力把事情拉回正轨。。。
世事没有绝对，
唯有加倍努力再试一回~~~
希望一切终究会回归原位。。。
相信明天的朝阳依然一样明媚~~~

只是现在的我，真的好累好累。。。
想要找个肩膀让我依偎~
天亮之前我一定会檫干眼泪。。。
因为我的明天，还是得要我自己去面对，
我自己的梦想，让我自己去追！！！