choices | decisions | prayers

choices are sumthing we face everyday...

and by that, decisions had to be made...

from the smallest such as what to eat or when to wake up, to the biggest such as those that will affect your future...

with the aid of god, i'd made a big decision during my first year in my uni life...

i'd decided to change my course, and from there i'd made the another important decision, which is to extend my term here for an extra one year...

i never regreted changing my course bcoz tis is wat i want and wat i like...

even though i miss my marine family alot!!!

but...somehow i believe tis is the correct path i'm on...

and i reli do thank god for keeping me strong and faithful all along...

many ppl were surprised as to why i'd chosen to extend a one whole year...

well, obviously i do not wana stress myself out juz for the sake of catching up with the others...

extra credit hours for each sem is no kidding...

i rather take it slow and steady and enjoy my uni life bac here ^.^

plus i can have stable relationship with my coursemates rather than streaming between seniors and juniors~~~

in my course, i believe coursemates play a vital role!!!

believe in wat i say~~especially when we have such hectic lab schedules...

my result for last sem proved me right!!!

i would not have achieved such result had i packed myself tight with all the hectic schedules~~

and i would not have achieved such result had not for my caring and unselfish coursemates ^.^

thank god for guiding me all the way...and thx for being by my side all the time...

walking on this path of life with u keeps me calm and in peace...

well, another huge decision is coming right up!!!

it's for my graduate studies~~

many knows tat i'd decided to further my studies oversea, particularly korea...

hell yea part of it is bcoz i'm a die hard kpop fans, but the biggest part is bcoz i have frens there and i sincerely believe that the technology there is far more advanced than ours here...

it feels alot more secure and it provides more space for researchers to carry out their projects without unnecessary worries~~

on the other hand, i know my mum is hesitant to let my fly...

she wan her girl to achieve greater heights in her life, yet she hopes that she would alwiz stay by her side...

one trip home per year is definitely not enough for her...

she's afraid that her girl couldnt spend more time with her before her time comes...

the part she fears the most, is that her girl wont come bac after she finish her studies...

i understand all that...

there were times that i tot i'm strong enough to soar...

yet when the time for me to make up my mind approaches,

i find that i do not have the courage needed to bid farewell to my family...

in mum's efforts to keep me here,

she offered me a dog of my choice, a brand new car, refurnishing my room, a whole new PC of my choice etc...

i had to admit, tis is damn luring!!!

plus...it's quite impossible for me to stay apart for such a long period with penang's hawker food!!!

i'm reli at the edge of changing my stand...

owh god help me plz~~

guide me with ur wisdom and i'll alwiz follow ur steps...

i put my prayers in your hand,

and i'll be awaiting your answers which you'll alwiz provide ^.^

amen