Belated 100th days

One week ago we embraced our 100th day being together~
it's a big day for Koreans, in everything the 100th days are celebrated~~
i had alwiz been thankful that i have him with me~
through all the sufferings i'm enduring~
and also through all the good times we're sharing~~
it's the longest relationship i had been in...for the moment...
and also he's the one i would like to spend my life with~~
however....
i guess i'm back to moodswing recently due to too much stress and too many matters to be taken care of~~
i started to think a lot, and started to being doubtful all over again...
i lost my confidence in us, or more, i lost the belief i had in me....
the negative thoughts are eating up all the spaces in my head....
and i even started to doubt how far more we can go~~
in the end, i just released all of my frustrations on him...
pity him...for being the victim of my unknown dilemmas...
and all he can do is keep apologizing, for something that's not even his fault...
i'm not a good girlfriend...i admit...
i know i bullied him a lot...
i should treat him better instead...
i'll learn to control myself more...
but at the moment, the stress on my shoulder is taking its toll on my spiritual and mental strength...
oh God...please help me...
bless me with wisdom and strength...to get over all the problems i'm facing now...
hope everything will turn out just right....

anyway...
Happy (belated) 100th Days baby~♥
and i'm sorry for treating u bad...